don't have a close friend!

i am the one who really really adore of my friendship

i think i never be in a good relationship
like another common people
because of that,
after my whole family i think my friend is the best ever after gift from god for me hehehe

i can't deny there are too many problem in every friendship
in every friendship, we decide to share with one other
always beside you when you fall

never cross in my mind, hoping my friend do the same thing to me
share with me in every thing
always beside me when me fall
never, absolutely no

buuuuut, when there is a problem
there is something wrong in a part of my life
when i was fall apart
 i hope my friend, my best friend, my close friend be my side
altough my that close friend there is something wrong too, there's something that must be finished in his life too, i keep hoping that he will come and stand by me hahaha

actually i've felt that long long long time ago
mmm, and and very very often hehee
but i just keep that feel go away from me

till, my friend say the 'ear catching' sentence
those sentence from her mom
" mbak, udah ibuk bilang, jangan berteman terlalu dekat, temenan yang biasa aja "

she says if there is something between you and your friend
it can be easier to forgive, if she or he is just your friend, just 'common' friend
but if he or she is your best friend, your close friend
it can be more dissapointing, can be more hurted
like a relationship ya

as always,
life's about the choice
you choose to get a best friend, close friend and never feel alone
or you chose to get just a friend, and can't be hurt, buuuut..
yah you know